I lay on the open terrace beside her. The divine smell of her long, luscious hair traversed the inches that separated my lips from her forehead. The wind stroked me tenderly with its ice cold fingers. The jet black sky was punctuated by the glow of million of stars. The moon beamed with all its glow, happiness personified. With my outstretched arm, I cuddled her even closer into me. I was in love. Pure. Eternal. Love.
“God’s most amazing painting . . . the night sky. Isn’t it?” I asked her.
She grazed my neck with her tender lips, and ran her fingers across my chest.
“I thought you were his most amazing painting” she said with a smirk.
“Bad joke Maya” I retorted.
I turned my face towards her. A smile was playing on her lips. She looked up into my eyes with her blue eyes that were as beautiful and as deep like an ocean. I searched her eyes, eternally lost in its resplendence. She smiled reassuringly and placed her hand on my heart beating wildly and crazily for her.
I was in the most beautiful place in the universe. The moonlight danced across the whole world, the gentle breeze and the million of stars felt like magic floating in the air.
I closed my eyes.
My dad was standing over me. I could feel his breath washing over me. He was smiling, grinning at me. I peered back at him, disbelievingly.
He smiled. “So happy for you son, that you married the woman of your dreams” he said.
“Like father, like son . . . dad” I replied, grinning.
He smiled back at me. “That’s my boy!”
My dad was my hero. Always was, always will be.
“I miss you dad. Why did you leave me?”
“I never did Vishnu . . . I never did. You can feel me, caressing you always.”
“But you are dead dad . . .you left me.”
“I never died Vishnu ma . . . I’m always alive. In you. Around you. Within you.”
Tears streamed down my face. I missed him like hell.
“Do you love me dad?”
“Always my little one. This moment . . . Every moment. Forever.”
He reassuringly brushed my hair with his hand.
The moonlight filtered through my closed eyelids into my mind. I felt at peace.
I could feel him smiling down at me. I could feel his warmth, his love flowing through my body, assuring me that his love for me was true, always true.
I wanted to be in that moment forever, suspended in my own dreams, with just him for company.
Maya kissed me on my chest and wiped my tears off my face. She understood my silent communion with the one man I loved beyond the world.
“I love you Vishnu . . . ”
I clutched her fingers even tighter and kissed her gently on her forehead. “Maya . . . I love you more with each passing day…each passing moment. I’m crazy about you.” The moment I finished speaking, I realized that my dad had told these exact words to my mom moments before his death.
Dad, you are right. You never left me.
The night sky and the million of stars smiled back at me.
“When I die, where will I go? I will be here in the winds, in the night sky, in the million of stars, in the moments of happiness; and if you loved me, you will feel me around you, always. In your silent moments you will feel my presence. Wherever you are . . . your love will keep me alive…always. And you will find me in your very heart, in your every heartbeat.” he had said to me on his deathbed, his frail arm placed across my heart.
I lay Maya’s hand on my heart, where I knew my father was. Resting in Love.
I love you dad . . . Always and Forever.